Sunday, June 17, 2012

Missing Sophie...and Randy...and my dad

It's been an emotional day, especially this evening. A month ago tonight, I came home about 9 p.m. and found my sweet Sophie girl in distress. My struggle many times this last month and again tonight is hoping that she wasn't that way too long before I got home. I can't believe she's been gone a month. I miss her so much and guess I always will.

Then, there's missing Randy. A few nights ago I had my driver's license out of my billfold and close to my Mac to pre-check in for a rental car next weekend for my trip to Massachusetts and Maine. At church last night I noticed my DL was not in my billfold.  I came home and couldn't find it anywhere by my chair. There is a basket under the table by my chair that has all the sympathy cards and notices of memorials from when Randy died. (I keep it there, but don't look at it very often). Since I thought the DL maybe fell in that basket, I went through it. That was an emotional experience and pretty much sent me to bed in tears. (I did find the DL though, in a different spot!). I miss him so much and guess I always will.

Today, I decided to work on the office again - there is SO much stuff to go through and instead of attacking all at once, I've decided to do in small pieces. So, today I did some sorting and shredding and I went through a basket (why is it always baskets with me?  Randy would be laughing at that!) of cards. Many were to Randy when he was ill and others were birthday cards (his 60th, my misc), some Christmas and some when I retired. There were several from Sophie to me (thanks to Randy and my mom). So, this was all somewhat emotional as well.

And, last  but not necessarily least, it is Father's Day and I went through pictures of my Dad, to post on Facebook. So, there were many good memories, but it also reminded me of how much I miss my dad and those days.

Why are there so many sad things in life? I am not denying that there is much joy, for which I am ever so thankful, but there is also sadness in missing those we've loved and lost. I guess there will always be sadness on this earth and we just have to live with it. I can tell you that I look forward to heaven when there is no more sadness. What a glorious promise that is!


"And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away." (Revelation 21:4)

7 comments:

  1. Beautiful, Karen! Thank you so much for sharing!

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    1. meandpaco@live.comJune 19, 2012 at 9:21 PM

      Karen, I KNOW ALL that you are experiencing....I went thru with the loss of my husband. Ever so often I re-read all the sympathy cads, go thru the visitation book and find something NEW that touches my heart and beautiful memories. You are in my prayers ALWAYS, as I hipe I am in your's. May GOd Bless and COMFORT you. Pam Brownderville-Averill

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    2. Pam, I know you understand and I DO keep you in my prayers. Like I heard someone say once, we're members of a club we never wanted to be! The memories, our faith and the support of our friends will remind us of our JOY!

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    3. You are a passionate and loving woman. And when you love someone you love them forever .....Fiercly. That is a gift that is so rare among people. You always find the best in the mess of things! Yes, there is loss....yes, there is weeping and pain. But, you had the opportunity of a lifetime to have been loved by a great man and a great animal. And because YOU know that it hurts even more. The promise is that you WILL see them again....they will be at the gates of Heaven running to you. They are NEVER far away as long as they are in your HEART! Much love Karen!

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    4. Thank you Deana and Brenda. I'm in no hurry to leave this earth, but I do look forward to seeing them in heaven some day, however that will work! And you're right - they are still fiercely loved, even though they were gentle people and dog!

      Love you back!!

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  2. Karen, you have a beautiful way of expressing yourself - wish I was so gifted. I think of you often when see things on fb but never take it any further. Blessings to you from Wye Mountain.

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    1. Thanks for the kind words Wendi. I think of you and Harold often and miss you both!

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