Then, there's missing Randy. A few nights ago I had my driver's license out of my billfold and close to my Mac to pre-check in for a rental car next weekend for my trip to Massachusetts and Maine. At church last night I noticed my DL was not in my billfold. I came home and couldn't find it anywhere by my chair. There is a basket under the table by my chair that has all the sympathy cards and notices of memorials from when Randy died. (I keep it there, but don't look at it very often). Since I thought the DL maybe fell in that basket, I went through it. That was an emotional experience and pretty much sent me to bed in tears. (I did find the DL though, in a different spot!). I miss him so much and guess I always will.
Today, I decided to work on the office again - there is SO much stuff to go through and instead of attacking all at once, I've decided to do in small pieces. So, today I did some sorting and shredding and I went through a basket (why is it always baskets with me? Randy would be laughing at that!) of cards. Many were to Randy when he was ill and others were birthday cards (his 60th, my misc), some Christmas and some when I retired. There were several from Sophie to me (thanks to Randy and my mom). So, this was all somewhat emotional as well.
And, last but not necessarily least, it is Father's Day and I went through pictures of my Dad, to post on Facebook. So, there were many good memories, but it also reminded me of how much I miss my dad and those days.
Why are there so many sad things in life? I am not denying that there is much joy, for which I am ever so thankful, but there is also sadness in missing those we've loved and lost. I guess there will always be sadness on this earth and we just have to live with it. I can tell you that I look forward to heaven when there is no more sadness. What a glorious promise that is!
"And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away." (Revelation 21:4)